I am learning that my addiction to sugar is just a coping habit to cover up deep rooted feelings that I do have the courage to face. When life throws a curve ball and I get hit smack in the stomach I run to my comfort foods to protect me from feeling the pain. The deep rooted neuro-pathways that I formed long ago as a child when I was hurt, are even deeper now and that is what is generated when something reminds me of the pain of loss. As I reflect upon this I stumbled upon a belief that I have harbored all my conscious days..that I do not deserve. And this belief is so prominent in my psychic memories that I draw to me all manner of situations to validate it. My higher self dropped a hint to my conscious mind while I was reading a book about how loving the universe is. Yeah Right, was my first response..which led me to the core belief of not deserving. I have blocked the love of the universe by numbing my feelings with food. So this is one step closer to healing. I found a great exercise that helped to uncover the root cause.
Today is not a good day. Lost a good friend, it is rainy and miserable and so am I.
What in the world can I replace food with to comfort me in tough times??? Still looking.
Western Doctors are useless!! I might as well have gone and talked to a brick wall. I was pissed at the waste of time I just wanted to punch something. Then I had an AHA it is the long stuffed anger starting to surface…its is getting scary on this sugar detox. More info on educating myself on what is happening to my brain:
- The evidence is in. Sugar causes inflammation. The insulin-resistant fat cells you pack on when you eat too much sugar produces nasty inflammatory messages (cytokines) … spreading their damage to the brain. In fact, researchers have suggested calling depression “metabolic syndrome Type II” because instead of just having a fat swollen belly, you also get a fat swollen (and depressed) brain. And psychiatrists are starting to treat depressionand psychiatric disorders with anti-diabetic drugs like Actos! These drugs lower blood sugar, lower insulin, and reduce inflammation.”
- “Eating lots of sugar is going to give you sudden peaks and troughs in the amount of glucose in your blood; symptoms that this is going on include fatigue, irritability, dizziness, insomnia, excessive sweating (especially at night), poor concentration and forgetfulness, excessive thirst, depression and crying spells, digestive disturbances and blurred vision. Since the brain depends on an even supply of glucose it is no surprise to find that sugar has been implicated in aggressive behavior, anxiety, and depression, and fatigue.” Oh just wonderful!
- I QUIT SUGAR