Got up today full of life. Not sure who or what flipped the switch to ON but it has been a great day. My hunch is that I worked on forgiving myself and did exercises to help process this. Much to my delight my creativity sprang forth and I hand painted 10 Christmas cards. That felt great. I also did a Christmas craft to give to my pals. Perhaps it was the positive frequency of giving that flipped my switch. To top off this great day I won $21.00. Yahoo. AND the best part of all is that I was not hungry, can you believe it???
And the war goes on, despite everything I know my inner child won in search of comfort after an 18 hour grueling day yesterday. I was up at 6:30 to catch the ferry over to the main land for my beautiful cousins celebration of life. I had the courage to get up and speak in front over 200 people. The whole day was walk, talk, walk and talk. Finally arrived home at midnight. This morning woke up with a huge hunger. So instead of wrestling with the sugar bear I chose passionate compassion and fed the beast. Now I have 2 choices: I can beat myself up all day OR I can forgive myself and start over.
“Inner peace is experienced as we forgive the world and everyone in it, and thereby see everyone, including ourselves, as blameless.
Each instant our lives can be regards as a present opportunity for a new awakening or rebirth, free from the irrelevant intrusion of memories from the past and anticipations of the future. In the freedom of this present moment, we can extend our natural loving nature.
When we find ourselves irritated, depressed, angry or ill, we can be sure we have chosen the wrong goal and are responding to fear. When we are not experiencing jou we have forgotten to make peace of ind our single goal, and have become concerned about getting rather than giving.
By consistently choosing Love rather than fear, we can experience a personal transformation which enables us to be more naturally loving to ourselves and others. In this way we can begin to recognize and experience the Love and joy that unites us.”
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Love means to thine own self be true. When you are in alignment with the truth of who you are you will no longer judge yourself. You will still the critic in your mind chatter. Your heart will expand and you will feel the pulse of aliveness.
When you are not being true to yourself you will feel constricted and you cut off the higher vibrations of love pulsing through your mind, body and spirit. It is just so, so simple. JUST LOVE.
Show the love to yourself. You are important and your health and happiness depend on your responsibility to take care of yourself. Give yourself permission to take time to assess your needs. Have you even taken the time to know what your needs are? You are an expert at caring for the needs of others but if you have depleted your compassionate deposits it is you who will pay the price within the quality of your life.
Love does heal, love fosters connections and love breeds more love. Giving of yourself when you are running on empty causes resentment and frustration which will manifest one way or another in your health and happiness.
Take little steps each day for YOU. You have to feel your are worth it to give yourself the space to change and to prioritize it in your life.
Create a sacred space just for you. One busy mother of young children used a colored stop sign on her room to teach her children. Red meant do not disturb and green was OK. Significant others need to understand this as well and respect your needs for space. Be gentle and kind to yourself. Keep your promises to yourself and ask for support. YOU ARE WORTH IT.