Got up today full of life. Not sure who or what flipped the switch to ON but it has been a great day. My hunch is that I worked on forgiving myself and did exercises to help process this. Much to my delight my creativity sprang forth and I hand painted 10 Christmas cards. That felt great. I also did a Christmas craft to give to my pals. Perhaps it was the positive frequency of giving that flipped my switch. To top off this great day I won $21.00. Yahoo. AND the best part of all is that I was not hungry, can you believe it???
I am learning that my addiction to sugar is just a coping habit to cover up deep rooted feelings that I do have the courage to face. When life throws a curve ball and I get hit smack in the stomach I run to my comfort foods to protect me from feeling the pain. The deep rooted neuro-pathways that I formed long ago as a child when I was hurt, are even deeper now and that is what is generated when something reminds me of the pain of loss. As I reflect upon this I stumbled upon a belief that I have harbored all my conscious days..that I do not deserve. And this belief is so prominent in my psychic memories that I draw to me all manner of situations to validate it. My higher self dropped a hint to my conscious mind while I was reading a book about how loving the universe is. Yeah Right, was my first response..which led me to the core belief of not deserving. I have blocked the love of the universe by numbing my feelings with food. So this is one step closer to healing. I found a great exercise that helped to uncover the root cause.
Western Doctors are useless!! I might as well have gone and talked to a brick wall. I was pissed at the waste of time I just wanted to punch something. Then I had an AHA it is the long stuffed anger starting to surface…its is getting scary on this sugar detox. More info on educating myself on what is happening to my brain:
- The evidence is in. Sugar causes inflammation. The insulin-resistant fat cells you pack on when you eat too much sugar produces nasty inflammatory messages (cytokines) … spreading their damage to the brain. In fact, researchers have suggested calling depression “metabolic syndrome Type II” because instead of just having a fat swollen belly, you also get a fat swollen (and depressed) brain. And psychiatrists are starting to treat depressionand psychiatric disorders with anti-diabetic drugs like Actos! These drugs lower blood sugar, lower insulin, and reduce inflammation.”
- “Eating lots of sugar is going to give you sudden peaks and troughs in the amount of glucose in your blood; symptoms that this is going on include fatigue, irritability, dizziness, insomnia, excessive sweating (especially at night), poor concentration and forgetfulness, excessive thirst, depression and crying spells, digestive disturbances and blurred vision. Since the brain depends on an even supply of glucose it is no surprise to find that sugar has been implicated in aggressive behavior, anxiety, and depression, and fatigue.” Oh just wonderful!
- I QUIT SUGAR
Yesterday I visited with 2 wise owl friends and the discussion was about shutting down our feelings. When I found this picture for my blog it was perfect. I have always felt for a long time that I just switched off. For the past 4 months I just sat in my chair doing NOTHING. At the beginning of November I had made a commitment months earlier to go back to my home town and babysit my granddaughter while the kids took a break and went to Mexico. Something clicked. It was very subtle and brief. An instant decision to start living again and I stared to feel alive again. Now the work begins as I realize that the loss of my home and dream back in May of 2017 due to a betrayal, knocked my socks off and I was overwhelmed with pain so I just flipped my switch. While back home last week, my higher self or intuitive guides (whatever your preference is to name it) whispered enough is enough. It is time to take action and change. Today I can feel the flicker of my old flame of passion and I am flipping the switch back on and coming out of my cave. This article by Luna and Sol really helped. 13 Signs You’re Struggling with Emotional Numbness
In Canada we celebrate THANKS GIVING this weekend. It is a perfect time to stop and give conscious thought to what we are grateful for. A tool I learned long ago was using a gratitude journal. This can really uplift your vibration especially in these changing times. I remember after loosing my beloved husband on Thanks Giving weekend when I was a very young, and our world was instantly turned upside down, was to line the walls of our hall with flip chart paper and each of us had to add one thing we were grateful for and soon we had a hall filled with flip charts listing love and appreciation for what we did have. This really helped to heal our loss.
One of our conversations around the dinner table was of course, the tragedy in Las Vegas. What came out of that conversation is the amazing selflessness of the instant human reaction to shield and protect others. I choose to focus on that. You have the power of healing love inside you, so choose that. HAPPY THANKS GIVING.
Remember the old saying garbage in garbage out.? Is it because we live in a world of duality that there are so many mixed messages for our minds to sort through/ What if it was only one thought and that is the thought of love. Love for all that is and ever was. Unity consciousness in this day and age of chaos and uncertainty. I ask you to take up the challenge and look for the beauty and light in every adversity. Are these horrific things happening on and to mother earth there to push us to grow in love and light?
As we send healing love to the flood and fire victims always seek LOVE in all things. There is a higher plan and I believe it is designed by Divine Intelligence. Practices Love Consciousness as much as you can because those vibrations have the power to heal. As you watch the news on the disasters focus on the human heroes that give selflessly to help others. This is love in action. Focus on that, as all this is bringing us into unity consciousness.