First things first….purge those old files and unsubscribe from email lists. Remember to simplify and unclutter so you can make room for the new. I started my day by eliminating two dozen email subscriptions and every time I was tempted to just have a peak I refrained. Then I turned to my files and it felt great to do the big file dump, if you know what I mean. I then went to my day planner and started to tick off all the things that I had accomplished. IT FELT GREAT. Now I can focus on my soul’s purpose.
A new year, a new day. I love New Year’s because I can look back and reflect on all the experiences I had over the last year. I can glean from the lessons I have learned and apply them to this new beginning. My destiny is to express joy and this will be my purpose for 2018. I love this time of year to reflect on my numbers and to course correct if I have been off track. My Higher Self has made it very clear that I am to get back to my journey of spirituality and as this is a 7 year for me it is a year of the inner voyage. Just for fun have a look at your numerology for the year. NUMEROLOGY
Got up today full of life. Not sure who or what flipped the switch to ON but it has been a great day. My hunch is that I worked on forgiving myself and did exercises to help process this. Much to my delight my creativity sprang forth and I hand painted 10 Christmas cards. That felt great. I also did a Christmas craft to give to my pals. Perhaps it was the positive frequency of giving that flipped my switch. To top off this great day I won $21.00. Yahoo. AND the best part of all is that I was not hungry, can you believe it???
I am learning that my addiction to sugar is just a coping habit to cover up deep rooted feelings that I do have the courage to face. When life throws a curve ball and I get hit smack in the stomach I run to my comfort foods to protect me from feeling the pain. The deep rooted neuro-pathways that I formed long ago as a child when I was hurt, are even deeper now and that is what is generated when something reminds me of the pain of loss. As I reflect upon this I stumbled upon a belief that I have harbored all my conscious days..that I do not deserve. And this belief is so prominent in my psychic memories that I draw to me all manner of situations to validate it. My higher self dropped a hint to my conscious mind while I was reading a book about how loving the universe is. Yeah Right, was my first response..which led me to the core belief of not deserving. I have blocked the love of the universe by numbing my feelings with food. So this is one step closer to healing. I found a great exercise that helped to uncover the root cause.
Today is not a good day. Lost a good friend, it is rainy and miserable and so am I.
What in the world can I replace food with to comfort me in tough times??? Still looking.
Western Doctors are useless!! I might as well have gone and talked to a brick wall. I was pissed at the waste of time I just wanted to punch something. Then I had an AHA it is the long stuffed anger starting to surface…its is getting scary on this sugar detox. More info on educating myself on what is happening to my brain:
- The evidence is in. Sugar causes inflammation. The insulin-resistant fat cells you pack on when you eat too much sugar produces nasty inflammatory messages (cytokines) … spreading their damage to the brain. In fact, researchers have suggested calling depression “metabolic syndrome Type II” because instead of just having a fat swollen belly, you also get a fat swollen (and depressed) brain. And psychiatrists are starting to treat depressionand psychiatric disorders with anti-diabetic drugs like Actos! These drugs lower blood sugar, lower insulin, and reduce inflammation.”
- “Eating lots of sugar is going to give you sudden peaks and troughs in the amount of glucose in your blood; symptoms that this is going on include fatigue, irritability, dizziness, insomnia, excessive sweating (especially at night), poor concentration and forgetfulness, excessive thirst, depression and crying spells, digestive disturbances and blurred vision. Since the brain depends on an even supply of glucose it is no surprise to find that sugar has been implicated in aggressive behavior, anxiety, and depression, and fatigue.” Oh just wonderful!
- I QUIT SUGAR