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Who flipped the switch?

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Got up today full of life.  Not sure who or what flipped the switch to ON but it has been a great day.  My hunch is that I worked on forgiving myself and did exercises to help process this.  Much to my delight my creativity sprang forth and I hand painted 10 Christmas cards.  That felt great.  I also did a Christmas craft to give to my pals.  Perhaps it was the positive frequency of giving that flipped my switch.  To top off this great day I won $21.00.  Yahoo.  AND the best part of all is that I was not hungry, can you believe it???

Self-Forgiveness

I am learning that my addiction to sugar is just a coping habit to cover up deep rooted feelings that I do have the courage to face.  When life throws a curve ball and I get hit smack in the stomach I run to my comfort foods to protect me from feeling the pain. The deep rooted neuro-pathways that I formed long ago as a child when I was hurt, are even deeper now and that is what is generated when something reminds me of the pain of loss. As I reflect upon this I stumbled upon a belief that I have harbored all my conscious days..that I do not deserve.  And this belief is so prominent in my psychic memories that I draw to me all manner of situations to validate it.  My higher self dropped a hint to my conscious mind while I was reading a book about how loving the universe is.  Yeah Right, was my first response..which led me to the core belief of not deserving.  I have blocked the love of the universe by numbing my feelings with food.  So this is one step closer to healing.  I found a great exercise that helped to uncover the root cause.

RADICAL FORGIVENESS

 

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Today is not a good day.  Lost a good friend, it is rainy and miserable and so am I.

What in the world can I replace food with to comfort me in tough times??? Still looking.

 

8 TIMES STRONGER

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Food Addiction: Is It Real?

Here’s another shocking fact: Sugar is eight times as addictive as cocaine.

Being addicted to sugar and flour is not an emotional eating disorder. It’s a biological disorder, driven by hormones and neurotransmitters that fuel sugar and carb cravings—leading to uncontrolled overeating. This is not a limited phenomenon. It’s the reason nearly 70 percent of Americans and 40 percent of kids are overweight. In one study, Harvard scientists found that a high-sugar milkshake (compared to a low-sugar one) not only spiked blood sugar and insulin and led to sugar cravings, but it caused huge changes in the brain. The sugar lit up the addiction center in the brain like the sky on the Fourth of July. Think cocaine cookies, morphine muffins, or smack sodas.

THE 10 DAY DETOX SOLUTION

Western Doctors are useless!!  I might as well have gone and talked to a brick wall.  I was pissed at the waste of time I just wanted to punch something.  Then I had an AHA it is the long stuffed anger starting to surface…its is getting scary on this sugar detox.   More info on educating myself on what is happening to my brain:

  1. The evidence is in. Sugar causes inflammation. The insulin-resistant fat cells you pack on when you eat too much sugar produces nasty inflammatory messages (cytokines) … spreading their damage to the brain. In fact, researchers have suggested calling depression “metabolic syndrome Type II” because instead of just having a fat swollen belly, you also get a fat swollen (and depressed) brain. And psychiatrists are starting to treat depressionand psychiatric disorders with anti-diabetic drugs like Actos! These drugs lower blood sugar, lower insulin, and reduce inflammation.”
  1. “Eating lots of sugar is going to give you sudden peaks and troughs in the amount of glucose in your blood; symptoms that this is going on include fatigue, irritability, dizziness, insomnia, excessive sweating (especially at night), poor concentration and forgetfulness, excessive thirst, depression and crying spells, digestive disturbances and blurred vision. Since the brain depends on an even supply of glucose it is no surprise to find that sugar has been implicated in aggressive behavior, anxiety, and depression, and fatigue.”  Oh just wonderful!
  2. I QUIT SUGAR

 

ONE FOR THE SUGAR BEAR

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And the war goes on, despite everything I know my inner child won in search of comfort after an 18 hour grueling day yesterday.  I was up at 6:30 to catch the ferry over to the main land for my beautiful cousins celebration of life.  I had the courage to get up and speak in front over 200 people.  The whole day was walk, talk, walk and talk.  Finally arrived home at midnight.  This morning woke up with a huge hunger.  So instead of wrestling with the sugar bear I chose passionate compassion and fed the beast.  Now I have 2 choices: I can beat myself up all day OR I can forgive myself and start over.

ANGRY BEAR

“The brain’s pleasure center, called the nucleus accumbens, is essential for our survival as a species. … Turn off pleasure, and you turn off the will to live. But long-term stimulation of the pleasure center drives the process of addiction. 

When you consume … sugar, your nucleus accumbens receives a dopamine signal, from which you experience pleasure. And so you consume more. The problem is with prolonged exposure, the signal … gets weaker. So you have to consume more to get the same effect — tolerance. And if you pull back on the substance, you go into withdrawal. Tolerance and withdrawal constitute addiction. And make no mistake, sugar is addictive.”

“Every time you follow the same path, a specific pattern is activated and becomes more defined … and it becomes easier to activate the circuit the next time. … Pretty soon, the bad habit neuronal pathway becomes the unconscious default, and your brain, wanting to be efficient, just takes the easiest, most familiar route. This is particularly true in the case of depression.

In a depressed brain, there’s less dopamine activity happening in the nucleus accumbens, which means that things that used to be enjoyable are not as pleasurable, and the only things that motivate it have to have a big dopamine payoff, which are the baddest of the bad habits, such as junk food, drugs, alcohol [and] gambling.”SUGAR AND THE BRAIN